Uhhhh (life updates)
Mar. 4th, 2019 07:35 pmI disappeared for a while, huh? Well, I’m still alive! Barely. I just got back from spending my school break in Cambodia with my sister. I was glad to visit and see the sights, but I’ve learned that I’m much more suited to traveling by myself. Booking everything to be to someone else’s liking is so much more difficult! I'll post more about that when I have the energy--I got food poisoning during the trip and haven't been able to eat properly for the past few days :( I'm recovering but still pretty weak. I still managed to go to work today (and spent most of it just sitting around covering for a physics class).
Also, I didn't get into a PhD program. I knew that this was highly probable when I sent in my applications, but I'm still disappointed. Now I'm set on the international teacher librarian track I guess. I know that I need to be mature and realistic and that this is above and beyond the best path for me given my background and what I want in life, but I'm still scared of the loneliness I'll definitely face along the way. I'm also facing parental pressure right now--I went to a prestigious university for undergrad and now that I'm not getting a PhD they've decided that it would be a waste of my degree to be a librarian so I should be a corporate lawyer(???). Are they right? Am I throwing away my shot? But what's wrong with being a teacher librarian? There's a part of me left over from my overachiever high school days that wants the recognition of conventional success, but the part of me from before that, when what I valued was a combination of adventure and making the world a better place, has been gaining traction in the past couple of years. If anyone has any wisdom they can share with me or wants to commiserate about being a family disappointment, my inbox is open.
On a happier note, I've been distracted from Dreamwidth because I've been consuming unhealthy amounts of the Static Shock animated series. I used to watch it on occasion when I was very young and don't remember it (or the rest of the DCAU) well. I love it!!! I want a reboot! I have a tendency to fall into dead or extremely tiny fandoms, but please please please let there still be fans out there I can talk to! For those of you who aren't familiar with the series, it's about Virgil Hawkins aka Static, a nerdy teenage black superhero with electromagnetic powers who uses his intelligence and scientific know-how to channel them in creative ways. His best friend and sidekick is a gay white gadgeteer genius inventor. What's not to like?? I'm going to write a post about Static Shock when I have more energy. I'm so happy when I watch it!!